Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Don't you just LOVE your friends?
Today was the first day of training for my new position. I started
the day with optimism. True happiness. The first time in 100 days (see
my 100 day post for more info on that ;)) have I really felt happy.
My training starts almost an hour later than my normal shift, therefore I got to sleep in an extra hour...wow, heaven! But holy hell, who would have thought traffic was that bad an hour later than normal. So, not that I was running late but in my mind, it was nip and tuck! Then a quick run in the rain, made it to work!
The morning was crazy. So much information thrown at me all at once, my head was spinning. I wasn't keeping things straight and I thought I was a goner. Especially since the other person training seemed to be flying through it.
By noon, I was almost in tears. I took my lunch bag upstairs, couldn't eat lunch due to the fact that I was sure I was going to throw up and sat down to text my friends.
Thank god for friends! They lifted me up and told me everything I know about myself but seem to forget. That I am amazing and will do amazing. To breath deeply. To do my thing. That I am a superstar. To stay positive. To ignore the negativity. To not stress. That I am smart. That their money is on my in the long run! And that to be overwhelmed on the first day is an excellent sign that I will enjoy the challenge of the job in the weeks to come. That anything you master on the first day, I am sure to be bored with it by the next week.
After that, I was able to pick myself up, go back to work and the afternoon went much better. I kept my positivity up and ended the day on a positive note. And even though as I walked back to my car, my umbrella caught the wind, snapped and cut open my hand.
Just keep smiling =) Friends can get you through everything. They remind you of who you are and who you can be. Those are true friends. I am so thankful for my friends....each and every one of them.
My training starts almost an hour later than my normal shift, therefore I got to sleep in an extra hour...wow, heaven! But holy hell, who would have thought traffic was that bad an hour later than normal. So, not that I was running late but in my mind, it was nip and tuck! Then a quick run in the rain, made it to work!
The morning was crazy. So much information thrown at me all at once, my head was spinning. I wasn't keeping things straight and I thought I was a goner. Especially since the other person training seemed to be flying through it.
By noon, I was almost in tears. I took my lunch bag upstairs, couldn't eat lunch due to the fact that I was sure I was going to throw up and sat down to text my friends.
Thank god for friends! They lifted me up and told me everything I know about myself but seem to forget. That I am amazing and will do amazing. To breath deeply. To do my thing. That I am a superstar. To stay positive. To ignore the negativity. To not stress. That I am smart. That their money is on my in the long run! And that to be overwhelmed on the first day is an excellent sign that I will enjoy the challenge of the job in the weeks to come. That anything you master on the first day, I am sure to be bored with it by the next week.
After that, I was able to pick myself up, go back to work and the afternoon went much better. I kept my positivity up and ended the day on a positive note. And even though as I walked back to my car, my umbrella caught the wind, snapped and cut open my hand.
Just keep smiling =) Friends can get you through everything. They remind you of who you are and who you can be. Those are true friends. I am so thankful for my friends....each and every one of them.
100 days
What can happen in 100 days?
Nothing and everything.
100 days ago was the incident date.
The day that changed me and my outlook on life.
Made me scared of my own shadow.
The day that made me not trust men, to look at them in a different light.
The day that made me cringe in fear when someone touches my neck, my wrists, my mouth, my hair.
The day that made me scared to walk down by the river alone.
The day that took away my silver lining outlook on life.
100 days was on Saturday.
I thought there would be more happening on my 100 days but instead, I worked my ass off. I spent the day mostly alone, thinking. Sitting on a tractor seat, tilling the soil, mowing the grass. Wielding an axe, cutting down trees and hauling out dead fall. Taking a chainsaw to the wood and then burning it.
I have never had so much satisfaction.
So, 100 days....
100 days has given me my sanity back. I am happy. Right now, truly happy. I will have my ups and downs and there will still be triggers and set backs. But they will be few and far between because he is not going to get me down. He is not going to take my life away. Even though it is raining right now and looks like all week, the sun is shining in me. The first time in 100 days, the sun is truly shining and I am smiling.
Have a sunshiny day!
Nothing and everything.
100 days ago was the incident date.
The day that changed me and my outlook on life.
Made me scared of my own shadow.
The day that made me not trust men, to look at them in a different light.
The day that made me cringe in fear when someone touches my neck, my wrists, my mouth, my hair.
The day that made me scared to walk down by the river alone.
The day that took away my silver lining outlook on life.
100 days was on Saturday.
I thought there would be more happening on my 100 days but instead, I worked my ass off. I spent the day mostly alone, thinking. Sitting on a tractor seat, tilling the soil, mowing the grass. Wielding an axe, cutting down trees and hauling out dead fall. Taking a chainsaw to the wood and then burning it.
I have never had so much satisfaction.
So, 100 days....
100 days has given me my sanity back. I am happy. Right now, truly happy. I will have my ups and downs and there will still be triggers and set backs. But they will be few and far between because he is not going to get me down. He is not going to take my life away. Even though it is raining right now and looks like all week, the sun is shining in me. The first time in 100 days, the sun is truly shining and I am smiling.
Have a sunshiny day!
Tuesday, 15 May 2012
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