I am a pretty easy going person. At least that's what I thought until recently. Some revelations have hit me like a brick wall. They have made me look inside of me and really think. I apologize to anyone in my life, past or present that I have hurt, looked sideways at, fucked over, pissed off or am pissing off. I also realize how many absolutely amazing girlfriends I have. I thank them all for their amazing insight, being able to see inside of me, the true me and still loving me, even though I haven't been able to see it myself and have sabotaged myself. You guys have stuck by me. Something so many others wouldn't have. You proved to me that your friendship is worth something and I can only hope that I give back the same amount of love and understanding that you have all provided me.
Today is the start of a new journey. Up until know, I have let people, mostly men, walk all over me, treat me like garbage or even meat. I thought that there would be no way that anyone would like the true me, so why wouldn't I let them look at me that way. Why wouldn't I let myself be abused or talked down to? Don't ever deny them anything! They may hate you! Well no more.
To anyone out there in the blogisphere, you are worth everything to someone, you will find that someone and if not right away, love yourself. It has taken me a long time to figure that out but I have a lot more years to live and love and I plan on doing just that. Find someone that will accept you completely! =)
